Darkness to light Chapters 3and 4

chapter 3
The next morning I slipped into the kitchen and began to prepare breakfast. Over the years Ive learned his favorite things like scrambled eggs with pastrami. This time I added some sausage and a blend of ground grains known to boost female hormones. I also boiled a couple of eggs laid out various cheeses jams and tahini. For years Ive dedicated myself to learning everything he loves to eat to prepare it for him with love. How foolish I was to believe the saying that the way to a mans heart is through his stomach. Id always overlooked the stories of my friends who were betrayed by the men they loved.

Once I read these words This is how a woman dies when the smile fades from her face when she no longer clings to someones hand when she no longer waits for an embrace and when a sarcastic smile crosses her face at the mention of love. By Rima Adnan.
At the time I thought to myself He couldnt do that to me. How naive I was to have devoted my life to trusting him to the point of forgetting my own dreams and goals. I gave up my beloved career to please him. Now my genuine smile has vanished replaced by a sarcastic smirk whenever I read about love or remember my love for him.
I finished preparing breakfast and placed it on the table on the balcony. Then I went into our former bedroom and called out to him to wake him up.
Hey stranger come on get up. Ive made your favorite breakfast.
Stranger? Am I a stranger to you?
Yes youve become a stranger I dont recognize. The man I knew died when his heart turned to another.
There is no god but God. So why are you insisting on this cursed month?
Dont be angry. Its only been two weeks and there are still two more to go.
I want to know your purpose in all of this if youre so determined to get a divorce.
I told you I want to keep the last memory between us for the rest of my life.
Wont you reconsider your decision?
I wont change my mind even if you were to end your marriage to her. Whats broken cant be fixed.
I wont change my decision. I wont do anything haram and I will marry according to the Sunnah of Allah and His Messenger.
Fine do as you please. By the way Im going to travel abroad. Ive already booked a flight to Turkey in three weeks. My masters degree application has been approved.
When did you apply for graduate studies there without my knowledge? You know I was completely against you continuing your studies here in Egypt. You dont need it.
I looked at him with a sarcastic smile on my lips and a look of reproach and blame in my eyes. Then I replied Its none of your business especially after your decision to marry another. Besides my heart has turned to knowledge and thats not haram.
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